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Corey Laury & Autumn Malhotra
I know I'll find some peace of mind.
( You'll Find it You'll Find it) x2
I know I'll find some peace of mind.
( You'll Find it You'll Find it) x2
Corey Laury
Verse:
I know what I'm supposed to do, I know what I'm supposed to do.
Seeking for peace I'm mediating like a monk. The mind a temple and the body is a shrine.
It'll get better with time, it'll get better with time.
Not to say that I'll have it all figured out. Just looking for more insight.
To see my best self much clearer, more motivation to make changes.
I understand that this is a process. It'll add up eventually.
That's what I tell myself, to get by, day to day, I pull my-self together just enough.
To make it through, I knew that something was wrong it's ok to improve.
What do you want what do you need.
It takes time to figure that out.
Don't let your process, get in the way of your progress!
Hook:
I know I'll find some peace of mind.
( You'll find it You'll Find it) x2
I know I'll find some peace of mind.
( You'll Find it You'll Find it) x2
I know I'll find some peace of mind.
( You'll Find it You'll Find it) x2
I know you'll find some peace of mind.
( You'll Find it You'll Find it) x2
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Corey Laury
Verse 1:
Just like somebody yelling at you in a different language, you may not understand it but the angers very real.
I'm feeling frustrated wanting more out of my life, sometimes I want to find a quiet place just to heal. I know I'm being hard on myself yes I know, people say I need to give myself more credit, complaining alot but never changing that's what it seems. I'm the only one that's thinking the absolute worst of me.
Corey Laury
Hook:
Please Don't Please Don't Please Don't don't doubt me.
Cause I got Room to Grow
Please Don't Please Don't Please Don't Count me Out.
Cause I got Room to Grow
Mike OhMy
Verse 2:
Please Don't, Please Don't I been reaped what I sown, I want peace or leave me alone. Guess I'm used to being alone.
Painted a picture from your true colors I'm Van Gough, When I put down the brush couldn't see us together man who would have known.
They wanna clothesline me I hit the limbo, negativity thrown out the window, while staying ten toes on the tempo and trying not to lose all my mental. Soul born in the flesh but it's a rental and the use depreciates the value.
But I made a promise and I had to vow too that there aint one that could ever out do.
Corey Laury & Mike Oh My
Myself, had to do all for myself, had to do it all for my health.
Corey Laury Verse 2:
Need to give myself some time, don't need to work to the bone barely no sleep it's okay to relax, busy all the time always on the go sometimes you gotta ask, is it worth it, is it worth your sanity, it'll add up eventually, I try to take it one day at a time.
There's a difference between working hard and needless grind.
There's a difference between being patient and wasting time. Yeah.
Corey Laury & Mike OhMy
Hook:
Please Don't Please Don't Please Don't don't doubt me.
Cause I got Room to Grow
Please Don't Please Don't Please Don't Count me Out.
Cause I got Room to Grow
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Love Me
04:11
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FIrst Verse
Making me nervous, making up methods to cut you off. What's the purpose of us tryna talk when you resolve.
To anger, a sentence with venom and verb exchange is it even worth saving? What is there to gain? Trying to explain my point of view like pulling teeth. You operate like its only you and none of me. Dismissively call me names for being vocal.
I gotta make sure my confidence don't take a hit. If i allow this it disrespects who i am. Expressing myself should NEVER feel like a burden. Mmm. Expressing yourself should never feel like a burden.
And im a little sad that it had to come to this. But my self worth and happiness is more important than this. And this the best that i felt in awhile. Now that I opened up and I let it all out.
Hook
You always put me down but you said that you love me.
Never looked out for me but I thought that you loved me.
Asking me for things in return i get nothing, Love Me? Your definition of it is ugly.
Went behind my back but you say I should trust you. Strike me with your hands then try to hug me. Think back to everything that you did to me and just remember afterwards you said that you loved me.
Second Verse
Learning how to accept love again.
Not just romantically but platonically too.
Re-learning how to let people in.
But I got my guards up so what can I do. Disassociating now i'm staying to myself. Don't bother being nice to me I don't need your help.
Im a make you all feel what I just felt if I don't have nobody then I have myself.
Family friends and my peers im lashing out, these are people that I know really care i'm bashing how.
I don't wanna consult. Cause y'all gone mix up my real feelings with the test results.
But some how I gotta let it out. Still got things to say but I'm a close my mouth. I just need some body to come and help me out. I'm just really confused at how I'm a go about getting over this hurt that's all up in me now I don't think I deserved the way I was put down but it doesn't excuse, the way I abused my friends and fam guess i'm turning right into you now I gotta let it go.
I guess I'm gonna be the bigger person, but that turns into holding your words in cheeks turning, bridges burning, living learning, to move on while the world is still turning.
Now that doesn't mean that it didn't happen, days months, time don't make it less valid, boxed in just like a chicken caesar salad, what it mean? Once you open up you'll start to see the vibrant green.
Make time for yourself, Remember your importance over everyone else, Be thankful for the people thats trying to help, before you sleep, look in the mirror and say I Love Me.
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Giving
03:20
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They say you lose people when you find yourself and its hard but it is what it is if you rock with me for real Now you missing the mark, you ran yourself down now its looking like you're searching for a quiet place to heal,
Your friends feeling like you don't speak to them no more, I try to tell them that it's just about me, they keep bringing up missed messages and calls now its looking like you gotta cut some old friends off,
But I feel bad, for not being there for everybody, Didn't you see that they feel entitled to you? Yeah I get that, But couldn't I've been a better friend? I just feel so guilty in the end. I guess I can see, what you mean when you say to focus on me, maybe I'm making myself out to be, weaker than I am, the snake the rat the beaver and the dam. I go to the cart to get the chicken and the lamb, over rice, I often think to my own on these overnights,
that I hold back on myself, familiar with the chain, shackle on the shelf, I often search for, a better understanding, of who I want to be, react aggressively, or stay quiet just to attempt to keep the peace just been thinking bout how I could've been in all these different types of situations,
Probably would've had better results if I just raised my voice. I shouldn't have to yell just to get my point across, but when I let other know what I need and desire it makes me feel dignified, so it doesn't matter how you feel or how you think I'm coming off cause I won't be vilified.
Accommodate to me, Contact of Eyes, Advice, The Vise, Untighten . I loosened my jaws now I'm able to speak, curling my lips, pronounce and mis word, talk through my lisp. No more cottonmouth, talking with silk when i'm raising my voice and my finger pointed out and my tongue cocked back and my legs real still, so even when I stutter, when I stutter, when I stutter, when I
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Looking over your shoulder ( uh) everywhere you go it cant be normal
Scared of cars when they drive by
Fireworks when they pop off
Scoping every single person i come across
I just wanna make it home i just wanna make it home
Not about to only put my city in a negative light.
Every place got its days.I Just so happened to be here, all of my life.
That means the good, the bad, the death, new life, here dealing with it all.
What you dealing with?
People in groups walking towards me holding my sword in my pocket.
Clutching my blade. Given the time anything could happen.
Looks like this might be the moment. Thinking that its your life or mine.
But they walk past and the tensions gone.
They was just coming from school.
Speaking of school maybe this trauma came When the drama came when I was 15, I was walking home with a group of my friends.
3 people ran up, 1 person each of us.
Didnt know em but i got hit in the face.
It felt like they had so much power.
They were all smaller than me.
But I ran off and I felt like a coward.
I was confused, and angry.
Refrain
Survival skills or fear
Survival skills or fear
Survival skills or fear
I just wanna make it home
I just wanna make it home
I just wanna make it home
Verse 2.
The very next day when I went off to school. After everything happened everything was normal.
Except in my bag under my books next to my pens I had a blade.
Didn't know what I was gonna do
All I know is that I wanted to hurt him for making my grandmother cry and my mother stressed out. I gotta retaliate.
Seen him in the hallway, he glanced over but didnt seem to recognize. The situation at hand. Did he know me? Oh well nevermind.
Followed him for a good 10. 15 minutes till he went in the bathroom.
This is it, Im going in, Washing hands to pretend. That i wasnt tailing him this whole time. Heard him in the stall.
I grab the knife but I looked in the mirror. It wasn't even me.
It was my brother wearing my face on a shirt. Thats come with beef.
Thats when I woke up and I realized. Some things just not worth it.
We would've both lost if i did anything.
Some things just not worth it.
A cry of a mother should be enough
To know its not worth it.
Refrain
Survival skills or fear
Survival skills or fear
Survival skills or fear
I just wanna make it home
I just wanna make it home
I just wanna make it home
Survival skills or fear
Survival skills or fear
Survival skills or fear
I just wanna make it home
I just wanna make it home
I just wanna make it home
Outro
I gotta get to school now.
Im running late.
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Intro:
Corey Laury
Practice what you pronounce, I need to open up and take my own advice, at least I'm aware of what I need to improve.
Friends Family and partner know me best, they know I've never really been that open, no matter what i'm going, through I keep it all to myself.
Hook:
Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah
Sometimes you gotta give
Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah
It's okay to talk
Why Why Why Why Why
Is it hard for me?
Why Why Why Why Why
Verse 1:
Sometimes I think what is the point of me having to speak?
Do people really value what I have to say from me?
But then again I tend to over think and I just wonder. Am I making myself out to be weaker than I am.
Honestly I've always been scared to talk, never know how they'll take it. Even when I have control of my tone.
Always telling me how I feel. I was the one who said it.
I admit I do be tripping every now and then I notice that I'm distant to the wrong people.
You know I love you but I display it through action, but words are important too.
Love Language, Todos son Diferentes, Kaihō wa muzukashī, it's something I have to work at.
But for now I’ll just put up my walls, I'm too nervous to speak, I don't value my word. I’ll just keep it to me. Its one thing to know when to pick your battles, But another when you don't want to get up and fight at all.
Hook:
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.
Sometimes you got to give
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
It's okay to talk.
Why why why why why
Is it hard for me?
Why why why why why?
Why Why Why Why Why? X8 (crowd )
Outro
I gotta stop making myself so small!
Gotta talk to the people that care about me!
Have to value what I have to say!
Let people know how I feel!
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Verse 1)
I lived the quarter of my life feeling like it needs to end no more pennies for my thoughts its just best I hold them in
When is my time I will know peace I'm tired of this pain Don't ask me to explain I don't understand myself
I feel like I'm the one that's under blame, it's my fault that I feel like this so I should be ashamed.
Maybe life would be even better on a different plane.
But I just say I'm tired.
" Why don't try and get some rest?"
No not that kind of tired.
I wish it were that simple, to just sleep it off, think away, think of a way to get rid of these thoughts.
Accept the reality of it all I'm not okay, People only understand something, unless they going through it.
Verse 2
Binging on food and film, no clothes I'm gaining weight, room ain't been clean in months, I find it hard to take-
"Just give me a second please."
I find it hard to take care of myself, its changing me more hurting me more.
Affecting me more ways I realize. I barely remember things past a certain age
He barely wants to be intimate cause his drive is gone. And yet he pleasures himself comfortably within his hands.
I find myself real nostalgic, rooted within the past, I just miss how I was. I just miss how it was, I just miss how we was.
The mind a temple the body a shrine, didn't visit in a long time. Not in tune with myself anymore.
I told lies, saying I wasn't good enough remaining broken.
Fighting these battles in my mind I'm all alone, everything is gonna turn out how it's supposed to be.
I had hope, with tears in my eyes, tearing me up inside while smiling on the out.
How I'm supposed to, tell the person that gave me my life that I didn't want it anymore.
I had to be vulnerable, open my soul to change, embrace that I needed help.
There's nothing more certain in life than change, another tunity for growth and transformation.
Disconnected due to lack of self reflection.
Deprecation, I don't deserve it, I know I'm worthy, of all the love I've received,
I place my hands against the mirror and I press hard.
Shatter the negativity of myself.
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And Still feat Larry
02:34
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Speaking:
Hey Corey it' Larry man, I'm up early in the fu**ing morning, contemplating some sh**, cause you know, that's what ni**as do, Um, And I was thinking man you been at this sh**, this music sh**, for all in its forms, for so long, And I remember when you was a bit younger, you know, you came to Ni**as, saying you know, " I wanna quit I wanna stop Ni**as don't give a f*ck I'm tired", and i'm letting you know those are valid feelings, and you're allowed to have those feelings but ask yourself do you really care? Are you really bout it do you really care and I told you it's nothing wrong with saying you don't really care alot of ni**as don't have it in them to admit that to themselves, on more than one occasion, I had to do it to myself, and stuff I be putting my hands into, sometimes we get into sh*t and you gotta realize, its more than what we thought, and we may not be believing we may be ready for those things just yet, or you know, it just may be not for you, I'm very, overwhelmingly proud of you.
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